August 4, 2017

What Matters Most Is How You See Yourself

I have stolen two things in my life. The first was a piece of candy as a small child. The second was a picture our leaders hung in the bathroom at girls camp. When I first saw this picture at camp, it resonated with me. I looked at this picture every time I went into that bathroom that week. At the end of the week when we were cleaning up, I went into the bathroom and I swiped it. Its new home became my bedroom mirror, where I looked at that picture every day for years. This picture became my mantra and I lived by it.

You might be wondering what was so special about this picture that I stole. It was a picture of a chick looking into a mirror and seeing itself as a beautiful peacock. The phrase written beneath the image said, "What matters most is how you see yourself."

As a teenager, I was pretty carefree. I didn't care what anyone else thought of me. I was happy with who I was. I tried to be kind to everyone I came in contact with. Life was pretty good aside from the hardships and trials that are naturally a part of this earthly journey.

Somewhere in young adulthood I forgot about that picture that once hung on my mirror and I began to listen to the voices that echoed around me that I wasn't good enough, that I would never be good enough unless I conformed to some else's idea or standard of what "good enough" was. I was bullied and belittled to the point that I had to say, "Enough is enough. I'm done with this." I had to walk away from the bullies in my life. I closed that door and chapter in my life.

Rediscovering myself has been nothing short of a grand adventure! I have seen, done, tried and experienced so many wonderful things! I have grown as a person. I've become a better person. And I think I can safely say, I am genuinely happy. I am happy with myself and where I am in life.

This past week I have been thinking a lot about the phrase "What matters most is how you see yourself." Those words are so true! It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of you! The only thing that matters is how you see yourself and how God sees you.

I think it is safe to say that at some point in their lives most people will experience what it is like to be bullied. Bullies seem to be lurking everywhere. Bullies can be friends, family, neighbors or strangers. It doesn't matter who someone is, bullying is never okay and you don't need to put up with it or tolerate it. The mean things people say are a reflection of how they ultimately feel about themselves.

Remember, God loves you! He is cheering you on! Don't be so hard on yourself. What other people think of you doesn't matter.  "What matters most is how you see yourself." And when you love yourself, life is so much more enjoyable!

June 25, 2017

The Hush, Hush Series

I have been struggling to find good books to read lately. I feel at though I have read most of the good ones out there. One day while looking for some new good reads, I happened to stumble across the Hush, Hush series. I went to my local library and they had the books available for check out.

When I first started reading I felt at though I were reading Twilight all over again. Girl meets superhuman boy in science class, she shouldn't like him, but she does- you get the idea. In this case though, it's a fallen angel instead of a vampire. Similarities aside these books are SO GOOD!!! I could not stop reading! I felt at though I was reading the climax of the story the entire time! I really wish there were more books out there like this!

June 12, 2017

Bubba's 6 Month Check Up

This past week was a difficult one, Bubba. On Thursday Mommy took you in to see you new pediatrician for the first time, this was also your six month check up. Mommy was impressed with the new doctor and felt like the visit went well. The nurse gave you two shots at the end of the visit and we headed home.

Things seemed okay in regards to your vaccinations. On Saturday though, it was like a switch flipped. You cried and you cried and you cried. You cried all night Saturday, I think Daddy and I got a total of three hours of sleep that night. Mommy called the triage nurse on Sunday and she had us take you in to urgent care.

The doctor at urgent care was really nice. He noticed that your leg had swelled up and that there was a large lump under the skin when you pushed down on the leg. He suspected you were upset because of your shots but didn't seem overly concerned.

Today your pediatrician called to see how things were going. Mommy told him what had gone on, he explained that the nurse hit a blood vessel while giving you your shot. The blood leaked out the vessel and collected (it's called a hematoma)- that's what the hard lump in your leg is and the source of your discomfort. He said the pain should subside soon but the lump itself can take a month to go away.

I know that shots are essential to keep you from getting debilitating diseases. Hang in there little one. I'm so sorry you are in pain. Hopefully this next week will be better.

June 8, 2017

Satan's Counterfeit

I have heard it said many times that you can buy anything. I had never really given this idea any thought until recently and as I thought about it I had a major revelation. I felt kind of dumbfounded and wondered why I had never had this thought before. The realization was simple and clear as day to me.

What I realized was this:

Satan wants so badly for us to believe we can buy anything, but the thing is you can't buy the things that matter most in this world. You can't buy love, it's counterfeit is lust. You can't buy health, it comes from good lifestyle choices (healthy food, adequate sleep and exercise). No amount of fad diets, quick fixes or surgery will change that. You can't buy family, friends, confidence, self-worth, knowledge, happiness or even a testimony of the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

All of the things that truly matter in life are the result of hard work and making good decisions and these things can't be bought.

June 5, 2017


Bubba, we just love you! I don't know that we will ever get tired of telling you that. Hopefully, you don't ever get tired of us expressing our love to you either. You have such a sweet disposition about you. As long as you can see Mommy or Daddy you are a pretty happy little boy.

I love those Asian eyes!

Selfie with Mommy.

We have been doing a lot of work in the yard and Daddy has been working hard to build the chicken coop. You just love being outside and watching your Daddy work. The other day while he was hammering some shingles into the roof of our coop, you just started to laugh. Each time Daddy would hit the nail you laughed- it was super cute!

Who says you can't eat in your swing?

I think the big milestone for you this week would be rolling. We've been working hard to help you learn to roll over. Whenever we put you on your tummy, you roll over onto your back. Good job! We are so proud of you!

Those eyes!

Chomping on your toes.

Looking wise beyond your years.

Sometimes it okay to cry.

June 2, 2017

Why I Will Never Own A Front Loading Washing Machine

I remember when front loading washing machines first came on the market, they were all the rage. These new machines cost a lot of money, but they looked pretty and used less water so they very much appealed to people.

Many years ago a friend shared an experience she had had with a front loading washing machine. She had put her kids poopy clothes in the machine and ran a cycle. When she went to pull her clothes out of the machine everything was covered in poop. Upon hearing this story I remember thinking to myself, "I am never going to own one of those things."

Since that time I have heard countless stories about how front loaders just don't do as good of a job as a top loader.

Recently our washing machine decided it would be fun to start leaking oil. We ruined several loads of laundry before we figured out what was going on. Life has been so crazy that we haven't had a chance to tear the washing machine apart to fix it. That meant for the first time in my life I had to make a trip to the laundry mat.

I went to the laundry mat with the best reviews in town. The man who worked there was super nice and helped me haul all of my laundry in and he showed me the machines and told me how they worked- they were all front loaders. I asked him if they had any top loaders and he said they didn't do a good job as the front loaders. Upon looking around the laundry mat I noticed almost every single top loader had a sign on it saying it was out of order. So, I used the front loaders and then hauled all my wet laundry home to dry it.

I wasn't at all surprised to find baby food still stuck to Bubba's clothes. My top loader gets that stuff out all the time. Will I every own a front loader? I don't think so.

May 29, 2017

Living Life

As I think back to this past week, it's kind of a blur. Life is CRAZY right now! We have so many unfinished projects, it is ridiculous! It seems like every day something breaks or a new project seems fall into our laps. We are struggling to find a balance between: sleep, work, exercise, becoming entrepreneurs, being parents, personal time, cars breaking, church responsibilities, family time, yard work, house work and our many other projects- you get the idea. Some days I am so stressed, I just cry. I wish I could wave a magic wand and have things done and finished. Someday, maybe I will feel like I can breathe again. For now, this is what we call living life and it's really hard.

A chicken coop- it's in progress.

This is our washing machine, it started leaking oil on our clothes.

The highlight for you this week Bubba, is that we discovered your ticklish spot (your thighs). And boy, do we love to tickle you!

I love how his face is framed in this photo!

Bubba's first picture, it looks kind of like a boat.

And we put a bowl on your head, that was pretty funny!

Even though you can be a handful at times, we sure love you!

I love my little bear cub!

He brings so much joy into our lives!